never again, fucking disgusting.

i'm sitting in the undergrad on a comfy chair. it's lonely down here on a friday. in chicago... lawrence and brian are going for sushi, danny is at u of c with fernando and ed, kenji is baking with serafina, tony is playing cod:mw2, and jean is on the bus to old orchard. in champaign, jon is doing laundry, greg is probably just getting out of class, mark and daphne are probably on their way to chicago too.

im here, studying for physics and working on my website. i wish i went home this weekend. i want some sushi.

nothing is that special at home anymore.

rural hicks

today one of my classes talked about diversity. we were to split up into 3 sections depending on where we lived. rural, city, or suburban. out of the 20 kids in the class, 13 were suburban, 5 were rural, and 2 were city. i was alone in that class, with another kid who went to whitney young. we were to talk about how diverse it was back at our high school and how diverse it was now. i felt homesick when i thought about all the friends i’ve made back at home, and how too much of the population here at u of i is either white or korean.

weekend back at home

didn't feel like it should've been. instead of relaxing and wasting away hours hanging out with friends... the first thing im greeted with is a list of chores to finish. i'm most productive when i'm givin little time to accomplish multiple tasks. lets see what i've accomplished this labor day weekend:

• call bestbuy and setup an appointment to get this new fridge fixed for my dad.
• buy printer ink and teach tony how to install it.
• meet up with a shady white guy at wrigley field to buy wheels only to call him back 2 minutes later and return it to him. sorry man.
• go to tom's house only to find my bikes un-assembled. fucker.
• assembled bikes.
• finally put brakes on my bike after riding a year without them. i feel like i dont need them anymore, but it still feels nice to have that extra assurance though.
• fixed the creaking sound on my seat.
• FINALLY FINISHED MY BIKE TO RIDING CONDITIONS AND IM SO SATISFIED WITH IT. this is one of the most accomplished feelings i've ever had. i spent almost 3 months on it, and seeing it come to fruition makes me smile.
• cook 5 plates of food for dinner for my sick aunts, cousin, and tony.
• washed 5 plates of food worth of pots pans plates and dishes.
• get my computer fixed (thanks A LOT, brian).
• midnight bike ride (finally.)
• get a hard drive and backed up all my important files (music, pictures, homework). feels good, man.
• got my presby check filled out.
• repacked everything in my bag.
• repacked everything in my car.
• took tony out to eat.

although i'm disappointed i couldn't simply relax over this weekend, im glad i got to finish stuff that needed to be done months ago.

being away from home so long made me realize how much i disliked ignorant chinese people when i came back for just 2 days. i don't like my house too much. i can't sleep in my bed without thinking about stuff i dont want to think about. i cant just sit around without having my dad call me every other hour pestering me about unneeded things. but i shouldn't complain, hes paying for everything. as i was driving today, i pictured myself on a motorcycle speeding down streets not caring about what could happen. and for awhile, it didn't seem that bad of an idea... only if i pay my dad back first and make sure he's living a content life with a steady income from me. it was a really comfortable feeling, thinking about having nothing to care about.

anyways.. the weekend is over. back to urbana.

the gaos?

im too far into this project to back out now. gotta finish.

day 10

i need a fucking bike.